Cycle

I never had a happy marriage, nor had someone loved me truly. A marriage contract signed not in front of mayor officiating the marriage. All done in quickie trick, married only in papers, not bind by love. Never had live in one roof, support for the child is out of his mind, even love for the child is purely out. I’d never consider it a marriage, just to let people know legally married in their sight. Though greatly in deep sorry for what have decided and done, what can I do is to just face the consequences of my faults. Yes, the very purpose of that relationship is barely for me to have a child. So impossible to get pregnant without sex of course, it’s the natural process. But having a relationship without love at all and only based on flesh, the outcome is so painful. A stupid decision I made and a lifetime trauma which I had suffered even for the child itself. Being abandoned of his responsibility is so hard, that shame experienced being ridiculed by relatives and n...