Cycle

It took more than three and a half years of agonies, pains, long sufferings of loneliness and deep loneliness. If I can only avoid on remembering those bitter memories, but realities are there. Writing blogs was a great help in me then, great joys it brings in me. I couldn’t notice how times and days passes by as long as my hands busy typing. Themes to write were just easy on me, topics to enjoy and impart it on keys seems a click. But something disturbed my mind, my life in those years. I’ve never thought I would have that kind of feelings. Seems my whole life body and soul was chained, just because of that silly feelings. I’d confessed to God Almighty for that great fault I had committed.  Months of that silly feeling before my mind was waken up. I had never fall in love to any man back ways in my youth days. Yes, I have two sons which I prayed so hard to have. Love was never there, I stand as a father and mother to both. Bitter things I don’t like to divulge even my so...

Phase of time was so fast, more than three years of pain, agony, deep loneliness. I can’t recall exact date when I stopped writing blogs; the pain is still here in me. Every time I sat on and my fingers began ticking, time passes without noticing it. What a great happiness it brings in my mind and heart. Great problems I had encountered in that year which affected much my mind. It took more than three years of deep loneliness, agony and pain in my heart. I can’t reveal the very essence of that lowness of my life. It’s just between me and my Lord God Almighty. Day and night keep on praying, asking His forgiveness, revival of a new life under His love and guidance. I thought I would lose my mind, day and night of praying. I thank God Almighty, thru His mercy I able to survive. A renewed new spirit given in me, slowly crawling for that strength, I survived. True, great faith in Him, never surrendered, tried to do my task given in me, made me to be much strong. I greatly beli...